4 Week's free time + 1 Week study--> Good score with evrything else done

I had resposibility of doing the OB project which was actually put on me. But I didn't get the data till I left for the home. And then as I was at home it was almost impossible to complete the project. But still I did manage to do some work. But it did not work out. Because of that I had big guilty feeling which even now can't get rid of. But being in very nice group i got through it and my other group membere did the work for me,

Today we had a ok day. From 10 t0 5.30 we had lectures. Now only I have some free time. Now I will be studying on OB and OM. I also have MIS presentation tommorrow so will go through her slides also. But taht will be done tommorrow morning. Tommorrow we have to submit BRM project. But my part of work is almost done, so i hope I don't have to do nething now.

I am getting very low marks this sem. I am reallly screwed this time. I seems to be at the bottom of the class this time. 

 I have to study really hard this 1 week. Just this 1 week study and then I will have really good score. Really that the mantra here.

Actually we have 5 weeks between any of the exams here. Out of which 4 weeks we can do absouloutely anything. I can actually work on whatever I actually want to. I can read, write paper, do CFA study. Absolutely nething and still I will get good score if I study just one week before exam and in the week of exam. That's more than enough here. 

Six Months of emptiness....BE PASSIONATE

I had big dreams before joining IMT. I dreamt of joining top B-School for more than 4 years. Well that's long time. Even now thinking of that puts me in awe. 

    I have always dreamt of doing hell lot of things in college. I always thought of doing everything possible could be done, to do.I have not done many things till now. and I have always dreamt of doing that in my b-school college life.
    Now its six month passed. More than quarter of my b-school life gone. AND I HAVE DONE NOTHINGGGGG!!

   When I look back I feel ashamed. I have actually done nothing. Absolutely nothing. I don't know why this has happened. May be as used to happen always. My attitude of being laid back. Not doing anything unless its high time. 

   If I look back i see my first sem went in getting settled and studying in a bit. Then in second sem came the summers. Though I was not so much interested as I was looking in Pune I still got dragged into it. I wasted more than 1.5 month in it. Then after that I actually did nothing. So at the end of second term I am facing again the emptiness. 

The emptiness my life contains. I always has failed to do anything credible, good unless I am asked for. I know I am good in anything when I get involved. I have seen it many times. Even here among the best of MBAs I feel I am good. 

But I have to work upon my laziness... yes laziness. I should bring in more passion in me. I want work hard for everything. I want to be passionate more. I want to anything in with passion and more passion. I can be very different and better person if I become more passionate. Normally when I get any work and I get involved in it then I actually get passionate about it. If I become passionate I can achieve everything and I will be the guy I want to be. Not complacent but the person I always wanted to be. Always doing something with more passion.

That's the MANTRA NOW

BE PASSIONATE....